unedited for 100 days. Day 45

We recently were able to move back home, after a 7 month temporary stay in an apartment while our home underwent water damage remediation and remodeling. Just last Thursday we had our first night back in our home, and in a strange way we have settled back into our normal routines like nothing happened. In many other ways, like garage chaos and newly settled layers of dust to discover every day, I am reminded that we have a lot of integrating to do. It's no surprise either, that my husband and I became sick over the weekend. We called it the 'let down'. It's that feeling of falling into your own bed at the end of the day, finally able to give in to your tired feet and feel all the emotions of the day. In this case, it's not that our feet were tired, but instead our minds. The mental exhaustion of a remodel is real! As exciting as it all is, at minimum it is like taking on a part time job (that you don't get paid for). This week, I am reminded of the importance of giving in to the so-called 'let down'. There are times when we have no choice but to operate on adrenaline. Equally there are times when we seem to start and end each day in auto pilot. Perhaps the most important thing we can do from time to time, is give in and surrender to whatever is, fully experiencing our thoughts, emotions and our bodies. Whether times are good or bad. Easy or hard. Maybe it can't be defined at all. A time-out every now and then offers us space to observe where we are at, to gather information to help guide where we are going next. For me currently, I know I am thrilled to finally be home, but I'm also digesting, reflecting and mindlessly spacing out on my favorite couch with no agenda at all. There is plenty to do, but somehow it feels right to make time to do nothing at all.